Someone from my childhood? Nobody from my childhood has stuck out. I mean, I've had friends, but I could never stay in one spot long enough for someone to make the difference.
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Who I wish I could be?
I wish I could be happy. Genuinely happy. I couldn't tell you the last moment I was truly happy. There are moments in time where its a true smile, but there's always something there.. eating at me.
Why can't I allow someone to love me? Why can't I love myself? I don't know where my head is at. Or my heart.
I'm lost. Where could I possibly find myself?
Friday, November 26, 2010
quote of the day
"In the end, I've come to believe in something I call "The Physics of the Quest." A force in nature governed by laws as real as the laws of gravity. The rule of Quest Physics goes something like this: If you're brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting, which can be anything from your house to bitter, old resentments, and set out on a truth-seeking journey, either externally or internally, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher and if you are prepared, most of all, to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself, then the truth will not be withheld from you."
Liz Gilbert -- Eat. Pray. Love
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
day 16 - someone that doesn't live in your state/country
Andrew Lemons
[Silleh Sir Lemons]"I was in love with you from the first day i met you :)"
Text from 11/21/10
I have loved you every moment since day one. You're the most incredible friend I have ever had. You're my other half, love of my life.
For some reason or another, we could never be together. Breaks my heart.
I love you Sir Lemons.
written works 2
The climbing skyscrapers,
Another story higher,
Another story longer,
The city lights dull the sky,
The sky fades to black,
I'm lost in oblivion.
I'm lost in your eyes.
Another story higher,
Another story longer,
The city lights dull the sky,
The sky fades to black,
I'm lost in oblivion.
I'm lost in your eyes.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
innerthoughts 4
People are going to get sick of hearing about you by time this is all done..
Well, here's another installment into innerthoughts.
Favorite memories; we haven't spent too much time together but I can name my top 5 moments with you.
5) The first time you called me -
You called because you wanted to hear my insane Hawaiian name. I don't know what it was. I never answer my phone. But I just felt it was right. Your voice is gorgeous. Well, I think so at least.
4) Late night conversations -
We're always talking. Until odd hours of the night. You make me think, laugh, and just happy in general. Sometimes we talk about nothing, others we talk about everything. Talking to you is just so easy.
3) First hug -
The night of Aaron's going away party. It's not the first time I was technically in your arms, you had me in some sort of weird hold at dennys, but nonetheless it sent me through the roof. You're so warm, so strong. Who couldn't fall for you?
2) Drive home -
You rescued me and Melvin from being stuck in Chula Vista. After you took him home, it was my turn. We listened to Breaking Benjamin, both of us knew all the words. Honestly, I knew which one to take, but those extra few moments with you made me so happy. We talked and sang together. Under a perfect moonlit sky. ♥
1) the First time we met -
I wasn't afraid to get in the car with three complete strangers at 11 at night. I knew I'd be safe. Your voice lured me in. I was hooked. When I looked into your eyes I knew you were going to be trouble. Ever since, I can't get enough of you.
Well, here's another installment into innerthoughts.
Favorite memories; we haven't spent too much time together but I can name my top 5 moments with you.
5) The first time you called me -
You called because you wanted to hear my insane Hawaiian name. I don't know what it was. I never answer my phone. But I just felt it was right. Your voice is gorgeous. Well, I think so at least.
4) Late night conversations -
We're always talking. Until odd hours of the night. You make me think, laugh, and just happy in general. Sometimes we talk about nothing, others we talk about everything. Talking to you is just so easy.
3) First hug -
The night of Aaron's going away party. It's not the first time I was technically in your arms, you had me in some sort of weird hold at dennys, but nonetheless it sent me through the roof. You're so warm, so strong. Who couldn't fall for you?
2) Drive home -
You rescued me and Melvin from being stuck in Chula Vista. After you took him home, it was my turn. We listened to Breaking Benjamin, both of us knew all the words. Honestly, I knew which one to take, but those extra few moments with you made me so happy. We talked and sang together. Under a perfect moonlit sky. ♥
1) the First time we met -
I wasn't afraid to get in the car with three complete strangers at 11 at night. I knew I'd be safe. Your voice lured me in. I was hooked. When I looked into your eyes I knew you were going to be trouble. Ever since, I can't get enough of you.
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