Christmas is coming ♥
& I would like..
Sony Vaio
a big ol' flatscreen
Mitsubishi Lancer Evolution 8 MR
Friday, November 19, 2010
day 12 - someone you hate because they caused you the most pain / song of the moment 3
I don't care anymore. Move on.
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"So tell me now
If this ain't love then how do we get out?
Because I don't know
That's when she said I don't hate you boy
I just want to save you while there's still something left to save
That's when I told her I love you girl
But I'm not the answer for the questions that you still have
1000 miles away
There's nothing left to say
But so much left that I don't know
We never had a choice
This world is too much noise
It takes me under
It takes me under once again
I don't hate you
I don't hate you, no"
Savior - Rise Against
day 11 - a deceased person you wish you could talk to
Jerriline Kuuleialoha Manaole
I remember the happy times we had. I never knew you really well, but boy have I heard stories. How they talk about you. I've never heard of such a great and giving person. They tell me how beautiful, smart, and talented you are.
I would say were, but you still exist. In our hearts, spirits, and mind. I see you everyday when I look at Chrissy. She's so beautiful, smart, funny.
I wish I had a piece of you to hold. But I just hold my heart. That's the only thing I have left of you.
I remember the happy times we had. I never knew you really well, but boy have I heard stories. How they talk about you. I've never heard of such a great and giving person. They tell me how beautiful, smart, and talented you are.
I would say were, but you still exist. In our hearts, spirits, and mind. I see you everyday when I look at Chrissy. She's so beautiful, smart, funny.
I wish I had a piece of you to hold. But I just hold my heart. That's the only thing I have left of you.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
innerthoughts 3
I FREAKING LIKE YOU ♥
It's just, I thought you should probably never know.That is all.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
day 10 - someone you don't talk to as much as you'd like to / 2116
I suppose I can't really specify who I would like to talk to more. There's so many people that I just lacked on keeping in contact with. Maybe one day I'll get better at it.. until then, I'm left wondering.
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The Produce Team 2116, I think yes.
These guys & girls make the day a little easier to get through.
You have guys like Kurt, who're incredibly nice. He is always genuinely interested and starts great conversations. Then there's James. He's always XD'd about the day. Marc, a big ball of crazy. Nataley, she's great to talk to about everything, plus she gives me all the best tips.;p Jessica, Jshizzle, everything is absolutely hilarious. Then there are those guys that are always coming in and out, Coulson and Moss, nice guys. We then come across Hector, the 'godfather of produce' don't say I said that! He has given me more than I deserve, I should really show him how much I appreciate it. I need to work harder..
Finally, there's Hovey. Andrew Hovey I can go to for everything. And I mean EVERYTHING. He's understanding, he kicks my ass when I need it, hardworking, funny, I couldn't ask for a better Ass. Man. Haha.
Thanks for everything guys!<3
I'm totally XD'd about being in this department. I mean it, super XD.
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The Produce Team 2116, I think yes.
These guys & girls make the day a little easier to get through.
You have guys like Kurt, who're incredibly nice. He is always genuinely interested and starts great conversations. Then there's James. He's always XD'd about the day. Marc, a big ball of crazy. Nataley, she's great to talk to about everything, plus she gives me all the best tips.;p Jessica, Jshizzle, everything is absolutely hilarious. Then there are those guys that are always coming in and out, Coulson and Moss, nice guys. We then come across Hector, the 'godfather of produce' don't say I said that! He has given me more than I deserve, I should really show him how much I appreciate it. I need to work harder..
Finally, there's Hovey. Andrew Hovey I can go to for everything. And I mean EVERYTHING. He's understanding, he kicks my ass when I need it, hardworking, funny, I couldn't ask for a better Ass. Man. Haha.
Thanks for everything guys!<3
I'm totally XD'd about being in this department. I mean it, super XD.
Song of the moment 2
"And to the rest of the world
God gave you shoes to fit you
So put 'em on and wear 'em
Be yourself man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny
Don't ever let anyone tell you you ain't beautiful"
Beautiful - Eminem
Have my babies.0_____________o
day 9 - someone you'd like to meet
I think I've met everyone I need to meet as of right now.. so we will change this up a little.
I've already met you, but there is a side of you I'd rather meet. It's that side that isn't suffering from heartbreak. The guy who takes his own advice. The one I don't have to remind to smile.
The you that once existed. But I'll never meet that man until she's gone and you're over her.
You say you are, you're in denial. I see it everytime you talk to me. I'm reminded you'll never let me in because now you're skeptic. Maybe one day you'll find out how much I genuinely care.
I've already met you, but there is a side of you I'd rather meet. It's that side that isn't suffering from heartbreak. The guy who takes his own advice. The one I don't have to remind to smile.The you that once existed. But I'll never meet that man until she's gone and you're over her.
You say you are, you're in denial. I see it everytime you talk to me. I'm reminded you'll never let me in because now you're skeptic. Maybe one day you'll find out how much I genuinely care.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
day 8 - a stranger
Oh stranger, I wonder what you think about when you see me. Do you ever wonder where I come from? Question who I am? Do you judge me because I don't look like you? I question you. Where do you come from? What's your story? Do you love, dream, hope? If so, what?
Stranger, as you sit there, I wonder if we've met before. Maybe you're something so significant. Maybe I judged you wrong. Maybe we're old friends; maybe we'll be new friends.
Stranger, I look into your eyes and see what kind of person you are. I see your aura and feel your spirit. The warmth of your smile or the coldness of your heart.
"Stranger, if you passing meet me and desire to speak to me, why should you not speak to me? And why should I not speak to you?"
- Walt Whitman
Song of the moment
"Another night goes by without sleeping
'Cause I know I won't wake up next to you
Another life goes by without dreaming
And I can't help but think that mine will too
I'm standing before you with this label on my head
I'm pleading before you for you to understand
Baby it's you
When I look up in the sky I see you
Then I turn and close my eyes
It's you
When I'm sitting all alone in my room
Everything reminds me of you"
- It's You / Ryan Cabrera
Must I say anything else?
day 7 - your ex boyfriend/love/crush
We'll do all of them.
Since I've already talked about Dustin, we will skip him. After that..
Alexander Ruiz
You're the one I regret the most. I'm not exactly sure why. Our whole relationship confused me.
I don't know what attracted me to you, you werent extraordinary at anything, you're actually nothing I'm attracted to.
Maybe it was because you related to me better than other people.
I made the worst mistake I could have ever made. I had love, a man who treated me right, but I left him for a loser like you. Now, I kick myself in the ass for it. He didn't deserve it.):
Jordan Wilson
The one who really got inside my head. Until this day, I still don't understand how you did it.
I love you more than I think is humanly possible. Maybe that's why my insecurities get the best of me around you, I'm afraid to be replaced, forgotten. You're my best friend, to be honest it was hard to sleep without you. I had to eventually get over it because we are 3000 miles away, still doesn't suck any less. We didn't date too long, I made lame excuses about why we couldn't date, but ultimately i felt I couldnt be the one to ever make you feel true happiness. You needed something more than some insecure little girl.
Robert Kelley
Well, our relationship wasn't long, but significant. It was something that made the wait, the move, the adjustment to the east coast easier. You were always so sweet. Your daily little country song lyrics that would make any girl feel special. Our little video chat dates. Our little rook power rangers. I picked you out in the middle of a room, you were hard to miss. Late nights, those few nights before arrival day. Study dates. Our relationship ended with no harsh feelings, just an awkward tension.
<6 & infinity & beyond(: & last but certainly not least.
Cameron Demski
This one was by far the hardest. You were the long distance one. Not that I didn't do it before, but with you it was different. I got to explore the wonderful Chicago. It was a great city.
I found it hard to get over you, I have no idea why.
But I learned a lot about myself through our relationship. I get attached too easily & I move too fast. So I made a goal & I'm halfway done. I don't really have much else to say. I wish there was something more to write about.
It seems to me after the first I had one bad relationship after another (excluding Jordan), I learned my lessons, let's hope the next after 4/13/11 will be a good one
Since I've already talked about Dustin, we will skip him. After that..
Alexander RuizYou're the one I regret the most. I'm not exactly sure why. Our whole relationship confused me.
I don't know what attracted me to you, you werent extraordinary at anything, you're actually nothing I'm attracted to.
Maybe it was because you related to me better than other people.
I made the worst mistake I could have ever made. I had love, a man who treated me right, but I left him for a loser like you. Now, I kick myself in the ass for it. He didn't deserve it.):
Jordan WilsonThe one who really got inside my head. Until this day, I still don't understand how you did it.
I love you more than I think is humanly possible. Maybe that's why my insecurities get the best of me around you, I'm afraid to be replaced, forgotten. You're my best friend, to be honest it was hard to sleep without you. I had to eventually get over it because we are 3000 miles away, still doesn't suck any less. We didn't date too long, I made lame excuses about why we couldn't date, but ultimately i felt I couldnt be the one to ever make you feel true happiness. You needed something more than some insecure little girl.
Robert KelleyWell, our relationship wasn't long, but significant. It was something that made the wait, the move, the adjustment to the east coast easier. You were always so sweet. Your daily little country song lyrics that would make any girl feel special. Our little video chat dates. Our little rook power rangers. I picked you out in the middle of a room, you were hard to miss. Late nights, those few nights before arrival day. Study dates. Our relationship ended with no harsh feelings, just an awkward tension.
<6 & infinity & beyond(: & last but certainly not least.
Cameron Demski
This one was by far the hardest. You were the long distance one. Not that I didn't do it before, but with you it was different. I got to explore the wonderful Chicago. It was a great city.
I found it hard to get over you, I have no idea why.
But I learned a lot about myself through our relationship. I get attached too easily & I move too fast. So I made a goal & I'm halfway done. I don't really have much else to say. I wish there was something more to write about.
It seems to me after the first I had one bad relationship after another (excluding Jordan), I learned my lessons, let's hope the next after 4/13/11 will be a good one
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