day 3 - your parents - part one: mom

Michelle Marie DeForrest

Ma, I don't know what I could possibly say to you, yet I have a million things I should tell you.

You're my mom, but you're also so much more.
Your mistakes teach me, about life & sometimes about who I don't want to be. Your heart has proved to me that no matter how hard it rains, there will always be a rainbow after. Your love for people is inspiring, even when you're down on your own luck, you're always willing to do what you can. Often enough you gave the shirt off your back.

But then ma, sometimes it feels like I don't even know you. This is the addict. That's someone I don't know, nor do I want to. For a while, it was overrided the parent. And that was scary.

Mom, we lost the kids. From that moment, I couldn't stand looking at you, I played nice for Chrissy, I wanted to hate you. But seeing you as you started changing in program, my opinion has changed. I see the parent in you coming out. And I love it.

You've done a million wrongs by me; but you've also done a million and one rights. I hope someday this will all have been a minor speed bump in the road. Never forget how much I love you.